This is my SoulCollage® card that I usually call "Angel of Patience." I made it a long time ago and it has always spoken to me of Patience in the large archetypal sense of the word. Patiently watering the flowers, consistenly taking care of the growth, not hurrying the growth, just staying with it and observing it. Plants and flowers grow slowly and she is patiently allowing the growth to happen.
Today I drew this card in my Daily Reading and all of a sudden I could see that she is STANDING STILL... and that she is a beautiful and "spot-on" image for my huge desire to stay connected to myself no matter what is happening around me.
I have been struggling this past week with all kinds of feelings that are coming up around my youngest stepdaughter whose ex-husband just admitted he is addicted to pills and alcohol but is refusing to get help. I have been through something similar with an alcoholic back in the 80's, which was of course a LONG time ago. But what is happening with my stepdaughter is flinging all of it back up in my heart again.
And man, it is HARD feeling those feelings, watching this happen to her (and to him), and knowing that I can't DO anything to help her.
But see how, in my card above, there is a dark storm happening right there, next to the scene of the peaceful angel who is watering the flowers? Lightning and (no doubt) thunder and dark heavy clouds dumping cold rain. And yet she stands, still, and focused on her one and only task of watering the flowers. She does not let herself be distracted by the storm raging outside, by the cracks of thunder, the sharp hisses of lightning.
I am going to let this be a visual reminder for me to stay connected on the inside, to stay connected to myself, no matter what happens around me. This is all that matters.
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